I'm smiling for finishing this, but sad that we have to say goodbye to this series. It was so sudden. And as I was starting to take notes of the kanji and words that are unfamiliar to me from this article, that news of termination was dropped. Anyway, I kind of understand that decision.
But it was so weird... this is MSA#13, it's about Life and Death, the April edition (April is 四月 in Japanese - which 四-four and 死-death can be read as shi), … the last MSA? Maybe it's just coincidence?
I'm no professional/sworn translator, so I might have made mistakes, and there are some parts that I translate rather freely to my own interpertation or rearrange the words around. If you think I make mistakes or have better option, feel free to comment or PM me and we can discuss it.
生と死 - Life and Death
In the world, when we're talking about accepting life, there are many happy things, sad things, fun things , and bitter things that we experience, while living and and approaching death, how does AKIHIDEsan perceive life and death?
Nagano-ken / Hirogata Hiroko
「When I was a child, I wonder if I ever thought of my own death. While I was enjoying my youth, I was filled by expectations such as “what will come up after this”, but as I got older, it becomes a substraction of thought of “to what extend will I be able to accomplish?”
Especially, my view of life and death is influenced by the death of someone close. Strangely, just as my father's 7th anniversary of death was over, after his death, his death included with his life, came into my mind. To tell the truth, in my case, because my father was hardly ever home, I didn't feel that close to him, such as there are also times when I didn't hold him dear ... however, if now I lost him, rather that being surprised, there should be hurt feeling in the heart.
In order to mend the heart that has been hurt, songs, lyrics, and other things were born. Actually, the songs, lyrics, and those things from around the time my father died, has strong reflection of my view of life and death, and something like what I created during that time, now I cannot create anymore, as only the hurt from that time has the strength to bring it up. Certainly, the death of someone close is something bitter and sad, it's an ending, but the things that were born from then on, are things with which you can help yourself. At times, with the consciousness of death and thoughts of it, life becomes brighter.
The thought of samsara, the cycle of being reborn after death, is something that completely roots in Japanese people, that's why I personally believe in it to some degree. Lately, I saw in the TV, that it is said that a child cannot chose their parents, yet I heard that the recollections of the fetus remains in the children, and that actually it seems like the parents are the ones who are given the way to chose the children to be born. For example, "mother was so lonely, it's decided to go based her condition", or something like that.... Thinking that way, even if you're dead, the soul will not disappear. Moreover, actually, if I were to chose, during such times as my rebelious stage, although the relationship with my family was hard, I wonder if a different way of thinking could come up.
In the past, I used to relate to such thing as "what is the meaning of to live?" .... However, nobody understands that kind of thing, isn't it? Therefore, compared to "why I was born" I think it's better to concern more of "how I am going to live". It's not about how you're going to leave behind descendants, but rather as the seeds of mortality called human, who are connected to a in big stream, and whichever mortal life it is, I suppose there is no such thing as pointless mortal life.
Therefore, the illustration for this time, I'm drawing the actualization that we are dwelling in one tree. While there are those who grow wings and able to fly, there might also be people whose wings were broken and fall down, all of those are combined, and becomes the energy of the big tree called mortality, which I think as an endless cycle. As there is no meaningless mortal life, there's no life that becomes meaningless, and for that grand mortal life, we are born, and going to live.
On top of doing that while living, if you ask me what is the important food, as of me, it's definitely "music". And then that music, as of for me, doing music for myself is not fun, but rather having people who give a listen to it. For example the live that we all create, the feeling of having everyone giving the songs a listen and caring for them, they become the strength to live. Therefore, if it's possible, up to the point when I welcome the end, I want to continue music and do live. Especially because live has the meaning of LIVE in English, and because it has the feeling of “the condition of living” as it is. I feel that it is so, BREAKERZ's music, the lives, even if I'm alone, if I become “a part of life” of a lot of people, I'm happy as I can be.」
In this writing, I translate 命 (inochi) as mortal life (as opposed of being immortal), and in my point of view, I take that meaning as one of the mortal lives (between 2 deaths) in the samsara cycle as mentioned in the article. In other part 生 (sei) is life as in the condition of living or being alive. I'm not a Buddhist, and I have very limited understanding of this concept. AKIHIDE uses another word 人生 (jinsei), that if you translate kanji per kanji would mean "human life" but I translate it as life as well, although there is another meaning of jinsei, which is "existence".
On the last paragraph, live is meant live concert. I wonder if it will create misunderstanding, but I think most people would get the message across. Also on the last paragraph, 自分が生きる場所 is actually translated word per word as “the place where one lives”, but it doesn't make sense to me, thus I changed it into “the condition of living”.